The Unveiling

 The first post went as follows:

 

Im stealing this quote because it so clearly explains how I feel.

"Don't ever feel bad for having high standards, if someone really wants to be in your life they'll rise up to meet them."

If school has taught me anything, is that its OKAY to set expectations of others, because they are expectations I place on myself as well. Working as a team with anyone means a group effort is required. I do not feel ashamed for the standards I set forth for others. I'm a very caring and understanding person, but I have boundaries that I can not emotionally handle. It is okay for me to be a strong person, and to lay down the line when necessary. If I didn't make this discovery, people would still be walking all over me.

Life is hard for me right now, and I have to remind myself every day that sometimes It has to be about ME and not others. I put so much of my effort in putting OTHERS ahead of me, ahead of my feelings, and my necessities. But through this chapter of my life, I need to accept that it is okay to take care of Barbara for a change. Its been hard for me to accept this change that needs to be made, because if I don't make this change, how can I expect to get better?

Today I have faith that everything will be okay. I accept whatever twists and turns life will throw at me. Today I will not mope at my misfortunes, but rather accept them and move on. I am proud to say that I am Barbara Brown. I am my own individual. I have Bipolar Disorder, Panic Disorder, and ADHD and I don't give a fuck who knows. I am me and always will be. I'm not going to lie, I am a handful of roller coaster rides at this point of my life. Those who really love me accept me for who I am, and if not its your loss because I have a big heart and I am an amazing person! You cant make me feel inferior just because I'm "different". And NO I'm not a crazy person. I have always been this way. If you seem to have misconceptions on the disorders, why don't you open a fucking book and do some research :)

I am not my disorders, my disorders are just a part of me. Accept it or fuck off :)

 

The second post:

I feel very empowered today! No one can take me down!

I will be sharing my feelings more openly instead of hiding and pretending like nothing is wrong. I am who I am, and there's not a damn thing anyone can do about it. Love me or hate me, its your choice. If you don't want to read what I have to say..... then just delete me.